Wednesday, January 25, 2006

My favorite things

Best seen while listening to a song from 'The Sound of Music':
My Favourite Things
(Here is the lyrics)

My Favorite Things
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things
Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things
When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad
disclaimer: all picture belong to their respective owners.
Pics used here to show how i like it and not for commercial purposes in any ways.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

The conclusion: It will be Me..... !

It happened around 10 years ago. We were (and i do hope still are- in hearts) very close buddy. So close, sometimes we gather around 3-4 times a week doing trivial things. Me, Armen, Rosul, Wie, Arief and Meymey (plus Abah who quickly disappeared). All of us were very young-being mostly at our early twenties, naive, single, and carefree. We could spend hours, and hours of talking and discussing about anything, mostly unimportant.. well you know.. youngster kinda chat..
On one occasion.. i guess there only Me, Armen and Rosul at the time we talked about many things and, long story short, we made a promise: the three of us. The first one get married would have to treat the rest of Ben Kwat Pay (that's how we calloed our little group), the second one could walk away free, while the last one would surender himself to be 'thrown' into the the cooling reservoir of mechanical engineering department of ITB after he got married, viewed by the other two and our partners. Being so young and reckless we didn't really thought about the consequences and what might happen ahead of us. that it might just a laugh and anything but to be taken seriously.
Years passed and we're grown. We faced our challenges, our time of trials, our high and down time, and also our separation.. and also our own reality.
Armen finished his study at mechanical departement of ITB in 1997, got scholarship and finished his post graduate around year 1998/1999. Got a job in Jakarta and married to our high school classmate (i guess the only couple from our class so far, and may be the only one) in February 2000, becoming the second in our Ben Kwat getting married (After Wie in 1998),and also fulfilled his promise to treat us (at his wedding reception hehehe).
Suddenly it became the undeclared battle for the second between Me And Rosul.
I got a girl first and we've been together for 6 years now, yet, let's just say that we haven't got the blessing to get married (i'll tell about it in other time/blog entry).
Rosul.. well due to our work and place we hardly meet. perhaps only couple of times in a year. He graduated from electrical engineering of ITB in 1996, almost cum laude, get a-$100/day job in Jakarta, worked there for 2 years then quit and start entrepreneurship and still to today, i guess.
Well a few weeks ago he called me early in the morning informed that he would get married on this upcoming january 29, 2006.
HA!.. so The conclusion is.. it will be me to go down the cooling pool, after i got married, viewed by the others and our soulmates.
... Come to think of it.. I might gladly doing it considering my state at the moment.... (sad sigh)

Saturday, December 24, 2005

if survey ask me (H&HR)

Harry Potter *Pairings*
Yes or no?
Harry/Hermione:yes
Ron/Hermione:no
Harry/Ron:no
Hermione/Draco:no
Draco/Harry:no
Draco/Pansy:yes
Crabbe/Goyle (lol sorry had to say that ^_^):no
Hermione/Neville:no
Harry/Lavender:no
Harry/Ginny:no
Harry/Cho:no
Ron/Luna:yes
Harry/Luna:no
Neville/Luna:no
Harry/Ron/Hermione Triangle:yes
Hermione/Krum:no
Snape/Hermione:no
Dumbledore/McGonagall:no
Sirius/Remus (God no..more like Sirius/Me :P):no
Parvarti/Harry:no
Tonks/Sirius:yes
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Monday, August 29, 2005

Call Me Delusional!

I've read all Harry Potter books and I will say that i'm quite sad with what turned out to be. Not as i expected (and perhaps secretly hoped).I know many of you might think that i am hopeless or weird. Why? Because that's how i hoped the pairing should be (look at the bottom of this entry).
This is the second time a set of stories or movies let me down. the first one being Deana Troy being together with Riker instead of Worf (I refer to Star Trek : The Next Generation, FYI).. sometimes I wonder whether I love the idea of 'opposite attracts' so much that i feel kinda depressed knowing some things don't go the way i hoped them to be, or perhaps i'm just in my sentimental mood..
Or in the case of my 'harmony' shipping, It's jus that they seems to be the most logical pairing (in my opinion, had JK R carried on with the character she developed since HP Book 1, especially after She dropped the idea of "a Harry and Cho kinda relationship") Or perhaps it's just my idea of Hero and Heroine should be together kind of pattern :P not to mention that I Believe in love as a proccess of a long relationship that you know your counterparts personality, admire it and fhen fall for it. natural isn't it?


I don't really good at words so allow me to take an article written by Bingblot on www.portkey.org which can help me explain my opinion beter. (For Bingblot i apologize for using your article. It's a very good argument i dare not to cut it)

The Canon Ship
Part 1: Taking pot-shots at R/Hr and the OBHWF

Harry/Hermione has been “proven” to be the best ship and the only possible pairing many times over by people who are both more brilliant than I am and have spent much more time thinking and analyzing all the books than I have. That being said, I’ve (finally) decided to try to put some of my thoughts about H/Hr out on paper. I cannot promise many actual quotes from canon as I intend for this to be more a general essay than trying to read between the lines of every single H/hr scene in the books.

Harry Potter is, first and foremost, a children’s book and it is a book about Harry. He is the main character, the narrator, the beginning and the end of the entire series. There’s a reason the books are called ‘Harry Potter and…’ rather than something much more general like the Hogwarts Chronicles or How Voldemort Was Defeated or something. These books are about Harry, his growing up, coming of age and, yes, his romance. To suggest that the main romantic development in canon is going to be any pairing that doesn’t involve Harry is, quite honestly, ridiculous. Therefore, the possible list of ships is basically any ship involving Harry. And given the way canon has been going so far, I think it’s also ridiculous to think that Harry will be paired with a boy (Harry/Draco fans are living for fandom and I would sincerely hope, though I can’t be sure, that none of them actually expect Harry/Draco to happen in canon.) So we are left with the girls. I’ll deal with Hermione last for obvious reasons.

Number one: Ginny. I have heard H/G shippers insist that Ginny is possible because she has been in all the books (and I believe that JKR once said that Harry will get together with a girl who’s been in all the books- this, before OotP came out.) Ginny’s presence in SS/PS is a non-presence. She has one speaking line at the very end and that line only shows her to be a Harry fan-girl. She has a crush on Harry before speaking one word to him. Yes, her ‘crush’ might very well deepen after he saves her life and she gets to know him better. But to think that she can grow to become Harry’s main love interest is far-fetched in the extreme. (And also, CoS that might conceivably be called the book where Ginny stars, still has much more of Hermione in actual page time and dialogue than Ginny.) PoA and GoF only confirm that as Ginny remains a non-entity, unimportant to the plot. She is given more importance in OotP but only alongside Neville and Luna- and still, she can’t compete with Hermione. So much for Ginny, then.

Ginny is (with the exception of McGonagall and Mrs. Weasley) the largest female role in the books after Hermione making her, in my opinion, the only viable rival for being Harry’s main love-interest. However, I think that Ginny can be dismissed as a rival relatively easily, leaving us with characters like Lavender and Parvati and Luna. None of them are possible because, at least as far as Lavender and Parvati are concerned, they’re nonentities and completely flat characters. Luna is neither a nonentity nor very flat; she’s very amusing and interesting and I certainly hope we see more of her, but she can’t be Harry’s love interest as she’s a little too spacey, seeming remarkably unconcerned with Voldemort (and everything else in real life with the exception of Quidditch and the possible exception of Ron). ;-)

Which leaves us with Hermione. I believe that in canon, right now, the romantic feelings work out as follows: Ron-->Hermione-->Harry-->Cho (pre-OotP) and ? (post-OotP).
Ron’s interest in Hermione is not perfectly obvious but I think it’s present and certainly there’s enough canon evidence to support the idea that Ron has some sort of crush on Hermione- possibly simply because she’s pretty much the only girl he really knows. However, his feelings for Hermione only add to the potential for angst and drama for H/Hr, which, given this is JKR, only strengthens the case for H/Hr. (They have to have some angst; Harry’s never had anything easy for him; his love-life isn’t likely to be much different, Cho being a case in point.)

Hermione’s feelings are more in doubt unless one believes in the whole ‘she bickers with Ron to flirt with him’ mindset which I don’t. Ron and Hermione bicker because Ron has no real understanding and no real respect for the person Hermione is; she IS a bookworm and she does study hard, perhaps excessively. But for Ron and Hermione to be together would require Hermione to compromise in large measure the qualities which make her who she is and that is something I don’t think Hermione would do. Furthermore, I think it’s relatively clear that Hermione’s priorities, her thoughts, and her mind (and her heart) are completely focused around Harry. He is the most important person in her life. The letter she writes to Ron in CoS is a case in point; her letter is ostensibly to Ron but it’s all about Harry; she’s worried about Harry and what might happen to him.

Part 2: H/hr in Canon

In PoA, we have what I think to be a nice indication that Hermione’s feelings for Harry are also, at least in part, based on some physical attraction. When Harry shows up in Honeyduke’s and Hogsmeade for the first time, Hermione is protesting his use of the Marauder’s Map because she’s worried (and she turns out to be right), that Sirius could be using the tunnels to get into Hogwarts.


QUOTE
Hermione bit her lip, looking extremely worried.
‘Are you going to report me?’ Harry asked, grinning.
‘Oh—of course not—but honestly, Harry—‘ (PoA, The Marauder’s Map, British ed, p. 149)



Here we have Hermione getting flustered (from what we can guess from what we have of her dialogue and how it’s punctuated) and we can quite easily imagine her trying very hard not to smile, in response to Harry’s grin. Hermione doesn’t get flustered like this very often and the fact that it’s Harry’s grin which flusters her is significant. Would she get flustered and react this way to his grin if she didn’t feel something more than friendship for him? I think not. And this nice little scene is ‘interrupted’ with Ron dragging Harry off to look at the other candy in Honeyduke’s. (I’ll refer you to the brilliant essay, ‘Flight Interrupted’ to think more about the other times when a seeming H/Hr moment is interrupted to deflect attention away from H/hr.) Also, in PoA, we see just how deep her loyalty and her care for Harry extends; she’s willing to report his Firebolt to McGonagall even though she knows that Harry will be angry at her, because she cares too much for his safety not to, no matter what the consequences. (Again, she’s right though she turns out to be wrong, as does everyone, about Sirius’ motives, but that’s another story.) Interestingly and I think this speaks to just how strong Harry and Hermione’s relationship is, Harry is immediately willing to forgive Hermione once he gets his broom back while Ron is the one who nurses his resentment (which again makes one wonder about the potential for angst in a love triangle.) And finally, in PoA, Hermione is so busy she has no time to sleep and is actually repeating hours just to take all her classes and yet she still makes time to go to the Quidditch match. We know that Hermione doesn’t like Quidditch, doesn’t understand it, and probably doesn’t care overly much who wins, except as how it affects Harry. So it’s pretty obvious that she goes for Harry’s sake, just another sign of where her priorities lie. Even her schoolwork gets put aside for a little while for the Quidditch game because it’s important to Harry (and I’d imagine she wants to make sure he doesn’t get hurt.)

In GoF, we finally get more of a ‘romantic’ subplot developing, in Ron’s interest in Hermione, Hermione and Krum, Harry and Cho (sort of) and, most interesting of all, Krum’s jealousy of Harry not to mention Rita Skeeter’s ‘scoop’ about H/Hr. Harry and Cho in GoF isn’t particularly important and besides which, it crashed and burned spectacularly in OotP. Hermione and Krum is more to the point, not because Krum is particularly important, but because for the first time, Harry thinks of Hermione as being pretty and Krum, Hermione’s first ‘boyfriend’, is jealous of none other than Harry. In fact, in both GoF and OotP, we have a running theme of Harry and Hermione’s romantic interest being jealous of the other. Harry is the most important person in Hermione’s life and Hermione is the most important girl in Harry’s life. There can be no competition that isn’t completely far-fetched and contrived and out-of-place in canon as JKR has written it so far.

And finally, OotP. Harry’s subconscious feelings for Hermione have already been brilliantly analyzed by jatkinson and I cannot do it any better and won’t even try. We see another example of Harry being Hermione’s priority when she shows up at Grimmauld Place for Christmas.
QUOTE
‘There was snow in her hair…’ (OotP, British ed., p. 440, Christmas on the Closed Ward)

Snow melts very, very fast, especially once you’re inside. There’s been speculation that Grimmauld Place might be cold indoors since it’s an old house and not very comfortable in any other way but it must be warmer than outdoors because Hermione takes off her jacket just after that. But besides that minor point, the fact remains that Hermione goes to Harry so soon after her arrival that the snow hasn’t melted- which gives her less than a minute to ask Ron where Harry is before going up to see Harry. And she is the only one to bring him out of his self-imposed isolation. (Amazingly, Ron doesn’t even really try, but that’s irrelevant.)

Harry and Hermione are together for Grawp’s introduction and Harry and Hermione are together when they are caught by Umbridge and Hermione is the one to save Harry from the Cruciatus and again Harry and Hermione are the two to accompany Umbridge into the Forbidden Forest on Hermione’s little plan. Hermione saving Harry from the Cruciatus is a wonderful moment, especially as it requires both fast thinking in a very tense situation and lying to a teacher, even a teacher as bad as Umbridge, which isn’t something Hermione would normally do- unless it’s to help Harry. (See my fic, “A Hard, Hard Thing”, as I won’t go further into what I see in that scene.) What I find more interesting actually is Harry and Hermione’s fight before then when she confronts him about his ‘saving people thing’. It’s the first real fight Harry and Hermione have and it’s intense, dramatic, and important- about big, crucial issues and not the little, petty bickering of Ron and Hermione. But more importantly is how it ends.


QUOTE
Even through his anger and impatience, Harry recognized Hermione’s offer to accompany him into Umbridge’s office as a sign of solidarity and loyalty.
‘I… OK, thanks,’ he muttered. (OotP, British ed, p. 650, Out of the Fire)



Harry throughout OotP is generally angry at the entire world and isn’t particularly willing to give anyone the benefit of the doubt as to their motives. Here, even though he’s still angry at Hermione and half-crazy with worry over Sirius, he realizes Hermione’s loyalty and thanks her for it. I haven’t bothered counting but, if my memory serves, Harry doesn’t thank many people for anything in OotP, given his general pissiness—but he thanks Hermione. It speaks to the strength of their relationship that they can move on after such a serious argument and still trust in their friendship and the loyalty each feels. It’s not love on Harry’s side, for sure, (at least not consciously) but it certainly speaks to a level of trust which Harry feels for very few people in his life. He doesn’t tend to trust too many people, doesn’t tend to believe in their loyalty to him or that they have his own interests at heart- not surprising given his upbringing. But he does trust Hermione, does believe in her loyalty and never, so far that we’ve seen, doubts it. (He does doubt Ron’s friendship in GoF when they’re estranged which is why Ron’s show of support after the First Task is so important to him.) He might not love her yet but he trusts her more than anyone else in his life, respects her opinion, and cares about her safety to the extent that he panics completely when she’s hurt in the DoM (and as Goldy has pointed out, he doesn’t even think to do the obvious and check for a pulse, he’s so panicked.) Harry doesn’t panic too easily; lord knows he’s been in enough danger in his life that he’s generally able to think under fire and keep his cool better than others. But when he thinks Hermione is hurt, he goes to pieces. (Interestingly, Ron being hurt at the end of SS/PS doesn’t make him panic nearly as much, although admittedly, Ron is pretty clearly less seriously wounded in a much less dangerous setting than Hermione is, in a place where all their lives are, literally, in danger. But it’s still interesting.)

And this very cursory list of things which support H/Hr in canon is not even including any of the other evidence we have of how well they understand each other without words and how well they work together as seen at the end of PoA. Simply put, Harry and Hermione are equals and partners in a way that no other characters are in canon. The Trio does function together and work together, most obviously in SS/PS, but since then, it seems increasingly as if it’s been Harry and Hermione working together and Ron is tagging along as a side-kick. In GoF, the First Task is all achieved through Hermione helping Harry, the Second Task he’s helped out by Dobby (I’m not going to read anything into the fact that Dobby is the house elf Harry freed and Hermione is, obviously, the free-house-elves champion) and in the Third Task, he is helped in practice by both Ron and Hermione but mainly Hermione because she’s the one who knows more about Spells and Charms than either he or Ron do. In OotP Harry is alone for much more of the book (or so it seems) but he and Hermione are still thrown together several times when Ron is not present or is present but in a minor way. (Also, in OotP, where JKR might conceivably have thrown in more R/Hr hints if she wanted to, Ron and Hermione are the two Gryffindor Prefects which is a convenient way of giving them more time to spent together-without Harry- but we don't see any of that. If anything, they only fight more because of Ron's dereliction of his Prefect duties. Instead, it's clear that Harry is still Hermione's priority and that Ron and Hermione are only friends)

Harry and Hermione, as canon stands after OotP, are true equals and true best friends—and it is only natural to think that they will continue to be so in HBP and Book 7. It is also only natural to assume that Harry will realize just how important Hermione is and how much he cares about her. Which, in turn, makes it only natural and right that Harry and Hermione’s relationship will deepen into more than friendship. We know there will be romance in the series and we know it will be Harry’s romance. Therefore, H/Hr is, pretty clearly, the only possible shipping outcome in canon—unless JKR decides to go off on a completely different track in HBP than she has been going on so far and makes Harry’s love-life one that is out-of-character, far-fetched and contrived. (In which case, that person will probably still be jealous of Hermione anyway.) ;-)

H/Hr IS the Canon Ship.


Well for those who think that i'm delusional.. this is my answer for you
'I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be' (=Dido:White Flag=)

A proud member of Delusional Harry Potter-Hermione Granger shipper club 'HMS Harmony'.


[harry + hermione]

Friday, May 06, 2005

torturing imagination

Wakakak.. kayaknya aku lagi rada aneh deh.. kayaknya lagi addicted to something very stupid..
kebayang2?

pasti nggak..
Ok put it this way..


Aku lagi senang ngehayal.. ngehayalin yang nggak2.. (not that dirty!!! mind you..!!) romance, love story, triangle, or anything to do with love..
and imagining me as the lost party,.. (being the rejected one.. left out.. cheated third wheel... or ousted cast... whatever... you name it)..
hahah percaya atau nggak.. my fave is imagining myself going to my love's wedding.
Apa aku lagi depresi or gimana gak jelas..
atau lagi kena siklus 3 tahunan..
or
perhaps because deep inside i am a sentimental man (cuihhh!)
Ironisnya.. saat gak ada hubungannya dengan one of my lost loves.
93, 96, 99. ketiganya has something to do with my 'love-kalaut' story haha. Personally aku juga heran, with my on-going steady relationship (walopun ditentang oleh ortu kedua belah pihak sodara2) harusnya aku tidak mengalami such syndrome tahun ini..
but I am feeling it right now.. (hmm jangan2 aku kebanyakan baca buku2 roman tragedi kali ya hahaha jadi kebawa2)
i hope it's not a premonition or something (and Please God don't let it become another premonition.. i've had enough.. i think).
Masalahnya 93, 96, dan 99.. such feeling merupakan premonition that my love story will be 'kelaut.' And They happened, setigaknya in my opinion.
hhh... 93 around 1 month after my sentimental mood appeared.. i got news that she's with someone.
96 not long after i got the mood, my crush told me he fell for someone...
99 well 99 was such a year.. i don't think i'm able to tell all of em' cause it's special

This is the year when i suddenly face intruder, compete with my friend, experiencing 'lieurgone', had the shortest relationship ever.. and the begining of the on-going to the sixth year relationship
woow i'm babling..
hahaha
kali gitu aja dulu ntar nyambung lg krn aku ca-p

huaaah ngantuuuuk

another personality quizz.. this time result based on Gundam Seed

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What Gundam SEED Character Are You?


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Sunday, March 20, 2005

personality 2 another quizz.. are they so different??/

Earth Sprite
Reserved, quiet, wise and free spirited
You are a sprite of the Earth: You have a deep
connection with the earth and all its
creatures, preferring plants and animals to
people you are quiet and reserved. You
understand things on a different level and can
often see straight through to a persons true
intentions. You are mysterious to everyone even
those in your family, they may live with you
but that doesn't mean they 'know' the real you.
Being inside the house for long periods of time
can be torture, you crave the outdoors and love
simply escaping up a tree or into the forest
where you can be free. Although you may be
smart you are easy to judge a person because
you fear what they 'may' be going to do. You
are wise in things that most overlook and you
are very creative in many aspects like art,
music, etc... Although try as they may to seek
you, you are a free spirit. Just let them try
to catch and put you in a cage.


.::=What type of Mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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hum.. personality 1 (accoding to quiz

Water
Your element is Water: Understanding, intelligent,
quiet and calm. You know who you are and no one
can change that. Usually quiet but only because
your listening, don't let anyone think you
haven't got an opinion! Your not quiet because
your shy or sad, your usually quiet because
your thinking. Your answers are well planned
and helpful so people generally seek your
advice. Your the perfect balance between
solitary and outgoing. But sometimes you need a
little time to yourself to sort out your
emotions and figure things out. You understand
the phrase 'sticks and stone' and rarely let
things get to you, whats that important for you
to have to get so upset over? You know what you
want out of life but are simply taking your
time and enjoying things. To you your life is
fine as it is, you can always change things
later if your not happy.


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Friday, February 11, 2005

Kayaknya Lulus.. Alhamdulillah.. Then What?

Insya Allah April 2005 ini aku sudah lulus S1 FE Universitas Terbuka. Kemarin ini aku dapet liat hasilnya UKT dapat A.. alhamdulillah..
The next question is.. then what?
find a better job? continue study to post grad? entrepreneurship?
Guess I have to decide as soon as possible..
If you reader have comment or suggestion? welcome..

gosh.. im to be 31 but psychologically 29??

You Are 29 Years Old
29

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Jadi apa kau di Jakarta?

Huahaha! pertanyaan yang standar untuk diucapkan namun terkadang sangat susah untuk dijawab.. apalagi olehku saat ini. beneran.. Of course aku gak boleh bercerita bahwa sebenarnya i am an undercover spy being on duty of spying on someone or in this termm something hehehe.. lagipula ini adalah suatu rahasia.. DZIGH!!!!
Well katakan saja aku sekarang adalah seekor eh seorang staf marketing dan customer care sekaligus. nah lebih dari itu aku tak bisa cerita... Tapi aku bisa cerita kalau produk yang kami coba pasarkan adalah batu.. dan bus (coba nyambungnya dimana coba..) dan mungkin juga produk2 lainnya seperti IT, komputer.., liat perkembanganya aja..
Tapi jujur.. setelah sekian lama ini aku di Jakarta.. yang aku tu cuma gimana jalur dari Bintaro ke Lebak Bulus ;). practically aku ngeden aja di rumah. kebetulan kantorku adalah rumahku.. mana gak bisa sering pulang ke bandung.. bertemu dengan si sayangku ituhh.. huaa.. huaaa.. ya udahlah.. kali ujian2nya harus lewat kaya gini juga.. biar lebih kuat ntar..
(maaf ya pamiarsa.. pola tulisanku ini memang acak2kan.. tidak berstruktur dan spontan.. kali seperti orangnya.. )
Naah selama di jakarta ini komunikasi baru rada terjalin antara aku dan beberapa taman yang sudah duluan di Jakarta.. belum intensif sih.. paling beberapa kali aja chat atau sms-an.. mostly gitu aja..

Well one thing i couldn't stop feeling lonely here.. I'm trying to enjoy whatever thing i can use to make myself enjoy my situation but well it's not really working (yet maybe). For someone who usually go out in the mornin' have a job in the afternoon and meet his girlfriend in the evening before go home, I can say that i'm a li'l bit pothetic. Seems like there's something missing here.. and i miss her alot.
Another thing.. and i am hoping of it so much is that being far from my family can bring us close again toether.. they can accept me with who i am and what i become. In the end i hope that this can lead to their acceptance toward my choices as well..
well keep on praying 4 that.. who knows.. sometimes His way is not thinkable by us..
humm maybe that's all 4 now.. when i got another idea.. i'll write again soon..


hey! btw you are welcome to visit my other page at http://arisrie.bravehost.com. (it's still literally empty for i haven't got a chance to fill anything there.. but maybe.. soon)

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Move 2 Bintaro

believe it or not.. i had to move to Bintaro. Three days after the notification.. i moved. What .. so quick.. Yep you're right... The actual plan was i were to move one week after the notification but the day after i was notified. Lightning strike broke our dsl modem so i had no choice but to move to Bintaro. My girl was furious with such decision (she had been mad before being told that i had to move to Jakarta) I understand her feeling for i feel the same.
It was a sad morning on Thursday November 25, 2004. With a chance i was able to make her accompany me to my boss place and wave me goodbye. Finally i left my hometown at 7. Goodbye Bandung.. i'll miss you alot. Rie.. i'll be back.. wait 4 me ok..

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Deg2-an menunggu ujian penghabisan

Yap judul yang cocok.. aku lagi menunggu UKT (Ujian Kompehensif Tertulis) UT (Universitas Terbuka) almamaterku yang akan dilaksanakan hari Sabtu ini tanggal 6 November 2004. Ini akan jadi UKT kedua ku setelah aku tidak lulus UKT pertama Bulan Mei 2004 lalu. Kalau mau jujur sampai sekarang aku masih belum mengerti bagaimana aku bisa gagal di UKT kemarin. Padahal perasaan sih aku bisa mengerjakan semua soalnya dengan lancar malahan. Nyontek? Gimana mo nyontek semua orang sibuk.. tapi ya sudahlah belum waktuku lulus kemarin kelihatannya (and i missed so many job oportunities tau.. Oktober November ini ternyata banyak banget pembukaan posisi di PNS dan aku gak bisa ikutan krn belum S1 hik hik hik huaaaaaaa) Well Anyway.. aku nyiapin juga lah utk hari besar itu. Utk yang baca.. aku mohonkan doanya.. Semoga aku dikuatkan sehingga bisa melewati tantangan kali ini.. with a flying color hehehe
Insya Allah. Kalau sekarang beres wisuda April 2005. Hum.. KUDU lah.. yah.. thankyou atas dukungannya semua..

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

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stuck in office 4 2 weeks

I'll be stuck in my office 4 two weeks around Lebaran.. How so? Well the owner is going home and no one can run the business while the show must go on.. See the bright side.. being in office make me able to perform Ied prayer freely Insya Allah.
The question will be what will I do during this boooring 2 weeks? i mean when i'm off duty? sleep? hehe I don't know yet. It'll happen next week so I'll see well ladies gents if you have any ideas what i must do, please submit your comment. For your information i am connected to the internet for 24 hrs.

Monday, November 01, 2004

Rendah diri stadium 4

Pernah gak merasa rendah diri? believe it or not aku mengalaminya selama 7 tahun terakhir ini. Haaaah 7 tahun? lama amaaaat? Tapi bener koq bisa dibilang sudah 7 tahun ini aku kejangkitan penyakit yang namanya rendah diri alias tidak PD..
pasti pada heran kan koq bisa? Well telling u somethin.. ada peristiwa yang bikin penyakit itu menyerang secara akut. peristiwa itu adalah aku DO dari ITB (man...)
Yapsi.. aku gak akan lupa hari itu ketika aku dipanggil ke ruang kelas di Teknik Penerbangan ITB dan bertemu dengan pak Hisar M. Pasaribu bersama dengan 2 orang lainnya (aku tak akan sebutkan siapa mereka di sini. Kemudian dia cerita ada masalah dengan studi kami dan kelihatannya 'kami tidak bisa diselamatkan lagi' karena kebijakan rektor baru. Kami diminta menuliskan surat pengunduran diri dari ITB sesegera mungkin. Hari itu langit runtuh menimpa kepalaku.. Seakan mengalami sebuah mimpi indah yang berubah menjadi mimpi buruk.. dan tak bisa bangun lagi.. (bagaimana bisa bangun wong itu kenyataannya)
Sejak itu dapat dikatakan prioritasku berubah drastis.. Aku tadinya punya cita2 dan harapan seperti ingin bekerja di perusahaan penerbangan dan punya penghasilan yang memadai utk 7 orang.. yang tinggal cuma 1.. bertahan hidup. itu saja.. dan penyakit rendah diri ini tak bisa2 hilang. Setiap kubuka koran dan melihat lowongan pekerjan, setiap ada Pekan interaksi Industri, job fair.. you name it.. aku cuma melihatnya dengan senyum kecut, mengelus dada, dan bilang ke diri sendiri.. mungkin belum waktuku... Practically aku cuma mengais-ngais kerja di kawasan bawah yang sesuai dengan tempatku sekarang.. Rekan2ku banyak yang sudah jadi orang.. ada yang tinggal di luar negeri.. ada yang sudah pegang posisi.. hehe aku masih merangkak.. bahkan sekarang kerja pada salah satu teman SMAku .. asal halal dah.. Sekarang aku tidak bisa bilang.. entah kapan terakhir kali aku bilang tidak..
Yang pasti saat ini aku sedang mencoba menyelesaikan studiku di UT.. biar aku punya sedikit kebanggaan utkku sendiri.. mungkin bisa sedikit mengurangi penyakit rendah diriku yang kelihatannya sudah stadium 4 ini..

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Dian& Fandhyt Nikah a personal Review

Hueheue akhirnya mereka menikah juga.. kebetulan aku dan Aday 'asal bunyi' bilang mereka bakal menikah sekitar bulan Oktober. alhamdulillah tebakannya bener.. da kalo nggak juga kan cuma asal bunyi .. (lepas tanggung jawab nih ceritanya).
Mungkin bisa dibilang ini adalah salah satu pernikahan anak UCC (United conversation Club) LIA bandung yang paling meriah yang aku tau.. mungkin karena situasinya sangat mendukung sehingga kejadiannya seperti itu. 2-2nya anak UCC, ortunya esp ibunya Dian emang Funkeeh- Maaf Tante.. tapi bener kaan ;) banyak anak yang bisa ngumpul, dan pengisis lagunya (Dite FeMale FM) bisa ngebawa suasana heheh jadinya kita have fun go mad dong.. Pengantin aja ditarik turun dari panggung dan joged2 ama anak2 (of course itu udah hampir akhir acara resepsi yang mulai jam 7 malam dan berakhir sekitar jam 9. ) Aku sampai melupakan 1 kebiasaan aku pas dipesta... sapu bersih hidangan. hehehe memang RW06 ko mau gimana lagi.. terbawa asyiknya suasana.. it was one of the most memmorable night in my life dan aku nggak akan lupa.. moga2 bakal dilanjutin dengan model-model berikutnya..
utk Fandhyt SALUUUT... akhirnya ada juga yang bisa menaklukkan si dingin 'Yukina' nih.. She's not weird anymore.. she's melted into a more normal form of creature .. Alhamdulillah.
Sayang memang tidak semua 'korban'nya Dian bisa dateng, Aday lagi di tengah samudra jadi automatically gak mungkin hadir, Rahman mengklaim kalau dia tidak tau - padahal pasti tau wong seminggu sebelumnya ke Pangandaran dengan Ilyas dan Arnie dan mereka bicara soal pernikahannya Dian Sepanjang jalan, or at least tidak diundang-impossible karena memang undangan utk UCC adalah undangan ala gossip, Gamma juga gak ada - entahlah mungkin menghabiskan precious little time left here with... Angga juga ga ada.. padahal kita berharap mereka juga pada datang melayat-eh memberikan selamat pada para mempelai -apa jangan2 belum rela ngelepas nih sodara2 >:)
Praktis yang ada cuma aku, Umar, Ilyas, dan TB -yang gak kesebut gak usah merasa aman.. gue tau siapa2 aja kalian hakhakhak.
Well anyways.. senang juga salah satu dari kita bisa menikah dgn anak UCC lagi.. dan ramai pula.. moga2 kelak bis ada lagi deh amien..
gitu dulu ah.. wassalam

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Went to Jakarta

I went to Jakarta yesterday (Monday October 4th 2004) to take my sister's test card
went at 4.30 am using bus and arrived at Kp Rambutan bus station around 8.
I saw a civilized side of jakarta, the part i never knew was there until that time. The time was 8 o'clock on Monday, a very busy day, city bus were few for most of them were on the road, stuck by morning jam that usually happen in Jakarta during rush hour. From the bus window i saw many people got in line, perhaps about 200 of them waiting patiently under the began-to-get-hot-sky, waiting for PPD route 10 Kp.Rambutan-Kota to arrive.When the bus did arrive, they just kept inline,honoring people standing in front, the ones apparently had been inline earlier than him or her,to get in the bus first.it was so touching considering that it was the only queueing happened at the terminal that very morning, maybe the only queueing happened in Indonesia in the morning. Very contrast to what happened on other routes where people had to fight their way to get into a bus.
Really, i couldn't help imagining if only all other route showed what the PPD route 10's passenger showed.
I remember what my dad told me. he went to Singapore once. On one occaseion he and his friend wanted to take a ride using city bus and he saw that people got inline just like i saw yesterday. being like that showed something, for me it showed me about civilized people, people who thought about others' right and not egocentric. I dream of that. Hopefully one day we can be like that

Friday, October 01, 2004

huah bt

bukan bt karena apa2 kebetulan lagi agak jenuh aja.. kerjaan lagi monoton nih Temen ada yang ngajakin ke Pangandaran mana dibayarin lagi tapi nggak bisa ikut karena kudu kerja sampai sabtu sore hikshiks ya udahlah.. Rahman, IIk, Dudi, Arni Vandra dan siapapun lagi yang ke sana enjoy your time ya..

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

halo percobaan

ini kali pertama aku nyemplung di sini.. maklumlah walaupun udah lama dengan iternet bisa dibilang untuk urusan kaya ginian aku tuh buego banget.. Nah kali sekarang lebih enak dilihat.
Assalamu'alaikum Warrohmatullahi Wabarakatuh
Hai.. namaku Aris. nama lengkapku... tarik napas sejenak..
Raja Mamungka Antonius Haholongan Aris Pratama Tamba..
cukup panjang (dan berat) utk sebuah nama.
Sesuai dari namakumaka aku nih orang batak.. (sebenarnya bagusnya dibilangnya pejabat -peranakan jawa batak hahaha)
sekarang aku udah 30 tahun..
resminya masih sendiri (but taken ;))
masih kuliah di UT perhari ini 28 September 2004, Insya Allah lulus ujian kompre November ini jadi April 2005 udah bisa wisuda.
Hobi.. macem2 tapi utamanya baca buku novel (The Lord of The Ring is my fave)
ngeliatin... saya ulangi ngeliatin bis (nice bus, kalau bisnya Mersi or at least European Bus dan bukan Hino -maaf yah kalau ada yang maniak/bekerja di Hino Indonesia, i don't like Hino).. nonton juga demen
hobi lainnya makan.. makanya aku jadi sangat besar dibanding 5 tahun lalu
Aku sekarang kerja di Derissa. jabatan resmi sih manager di derissa learning center sebuah lembaga pendidikan di kawasan bandung timur.. tidak resminya.. rahasia ah..
Nomor telepon aku kebetulan ada 2 08156066221 dan081118528
itu dulu aja deh sedikit perkenalan untuk pamiarsa semuanya
kalau ada komentar silakan kirim aja yah..
bye
Wassalamualaikum